the struggle to maintain a sane mind in the environment in which I live is becoming more of a chore. the difficulty isn’t the problem. its the wantingness of being part of the “sane” in this “sane” world that is depleting as time washes over me. becoming “insane” will be my greatest accomplishment.

in all honesty. i love the so.cal life. the bars. the sports. the night life. the beach. i love it all. 

but i dont see my self here forever. i cant see myself living in the city, or the suburbs.  i cant. i wont.
to live in nature is my dream. is a goal. i will do it. 

hopefully it wont take a life time to get there. but at the end. that is where i will be.